I wonder...

I wonder why people tend to be stereotypic-same job,same life,same timetable,same sorrows,,
People dont try to be innovative n themselves but i would appreciate the people who handle all this
and be innovative .World is dying in its own pace and we try to be apart from this change and we try to be happy in ourselves..how selfish we've turned?
Is this life given to us by our creator ?We live in a world of various choice and we tend to select only one option -STEREOTYPIC.y?
By my creator's grace, i have got what i wanted and i am fully satisfied till now but when i don't get sumthing i wanted now i wud be
dissatisfied and this is for sure .Coz i have'nt been subjected to hardships of life like-struggle,sacrifice and moreover "patience".
Now iam in search of a person who is capable of handling situations which may be embarrasing,a good listener,solving my
problems,a good samaritan like me and for me .That person may be a true frend of mine forever or till i die and that shud be for sure.
I always think that people suffer the most than they enjoy and i may be wrong for people who think that this life is a test for all of us and
we are here for an instance.Is this the life god gave us with all the facilities but with a limit ?

Changing lives...

Situations mold a person into a strong one...or even weaker one..

People get irritated,frustrated..some vent out their anger,some bury them deep into themselves...at times they break out. At times they turn into nerds and sometimes they turn go berserk,some much so that they even loose their life,even take others life in that deluge.

There's always this misconception that all is well that ends well...but the reality is all is well when everything is well...Just can't judge the situation and comment at a random.

A small and a random thought...

Oh god ! Release me from these apprehensions, confusions, and many more things i've never come through...
There's always a numbness in thought these days.. Is it attributed to something irrelevant to me which is bothering much ??
Just make these illusions clear to me oh god..!
Make me strong enough to face this odd-mad world which is just temporary..as a bubble.
Make me simple enough that people around shouldn't think to speak to me..
Make my thought so straight forward that no negativity creeps into any of the conversations..
Make me so simple that you would easily take me into your favorite set of people..
Purify your thoughts, your soul would follow the same suite ..

We all wear masks metaphorically speaking,.. We inevitably suppress our darkest desires and adapt a more socially acceptable image .

Patience and perseverance are the key words towards success .. But what about things which doesn't turn the way as expected ?? Any answers yet??

Chronicles of my life..

Unpredictable,confused,slapstick..sarcastic...generally those are the words people utter to explain me to the core...

I am with them..cuz i just can't attribute the reasons and play the blame games now. Just that some people turn impromptu in judging me..might be that I'm not so open...for quick changes,I can't be a humorous guy..dunno y?

Sometimes I feel like I am the happiest person ever...just that i need to change the perspective i look this world .. but this is often wrong. I am sometimes com pulsed to think that this is just a part of a destiny...

I need to change this..it is not that "want"..it is the "need" of the hour...and i need to change this. Be more gleeful?or fake it off? Cuz I'm no more interested in relations...disgusting.

As a child, I wasn't just another kid ..kidding around...a keen observer..as said by people who know me well, I was just a dumb headed imbecile..I felt so inferior and there was no proper reason for that..

Friends/Class mates of mine were so gleeful,but i was helpless about it..inside i was like a slowly poisoned...unknown reason. Tried to kill this feeling a lot..failed at the same time...

simple chronicles of my life..

I once believed that it is normal to be abnormal..until one day all of a sudden i came across a personality..whose presence felt like a change is inevitable,I stopped for a moment,thought
that might be situations make a person of sometimes wit,sometimes...uhh ! it's painful.
this "sometimes" is also again a dangerous thing..cuz it is only sometimes somethings happen.And moreover,change..was in attitude..in terms of outlook towards life,towards small things which matter..for others but not for me..
Now a days i feel like it is important to me to be like that..'responsible','quiet','mature'...
On contrary to that..i feel like liberating myself out..

I feel pity on myself 'sometimes' that i am not clear with my life..my aspirations are in one directions and i am walking on the other side..I introspect on a periodic basis only to find i am a loser..and it is only my parent's presence and love which might have stopped me from going astray..But yes i do believe one day i would make that change..cuz change is inevitable.
Frustrations..confusions..
speculations..allegations,
inhumanities,psychic disorders..
why do you think people have these things?
Why do u think people have misery?
Don't u think it is your responsibility at least as a fellow human being?Don't you take it as a your problem to solve..unlike entertaining them for some time and leaving them again in the same situation?
Why do you think people don't talk so freely? Why do you think there's enmity between people..irrespective of sect,caste tribe or even religion,different faith??
I can only understand one language..language of affinity,smile..where there are no borders..no tiff's,..no ifs and no butts..and nothing makes happy than people with no ego's...
People find me weird,abnormal and say that I'm strange that way..cuz I've experienced such strange eccentricities...cuz i love such elementary things..and it's been my fate to compensate for the wonderful 'normal' life people have...! so before u judge me..try hard to know,love me..the painful past I've had...

It's just that you need to accept the hard facts coming into your life ... with all the glee u have in you.. create a very lively environment around you ...

"THE EXIT"

A baby enters the world.. so cold,with so much of delicacy. It demands so much of care,love and affection; perhaps through it's traits.. By the time, gradually the baby grows up to a child leaving a bit of innocence, discovering the world around him. 
Sometimes amazed by the world around,sometimes confused,disappointed, excited.. He keeps on learning 
things,some bad, some good and some worse.. He slowly gets acquainted with his fellow members leaving the infancy taking the EXIT from the infancy and probably childhood. Then comes his early teen period where he gets some energy and his thought process which is fresh..ready to grasp everything speckle of thing coming his way(mostly sarcastic things :P).
He discovers more out of his life sometimes perhaps more than his capability.He gets a more glimpse of the world and it's wild side but could not infer anything out of it... And perhaps life starts and goes the way it is destined to...
I always felt ecstatic at this feeling that I am a human rather being some kind of creature..I was born and brought just normal as others were.. But deep down under my skin i felt I am a bit different from others in one way or the other..Everything was just 'normal' with me .. I felt graceful for that always. There was always a complaint for me for being sloppy in normal terms of learning, doing homework, for my handwriting.. for my attraction towards girls in the school.. though my elders did not point that out or rather figured that out.. Slowly my perception towards life got sometimes narrowed in and I moved on and EXITED from one to other phase of life by the time as destined.. All i needed to do is to just be content with what I have and rather NOT to cry for what I don't have or for what I 
crave for..All I could say today about life is to "MOVE ON" .. whether you get to the goal or not.. I admit it may get hard to follow it than to say it off but yes by god's grace to major extent I tried to achieve it...
Life's a journey.. and you are never alone here... I admit that you come alone and go alone.. It's just the temporary world and the moments which make you feel good about existing or rather living here .. I feel life is a rare gift and i try not to waste it sarcastically.. Here I am standing with a smile..trying to accept life as it comes.. trying to make a difference in myself Cuz i listen to Michael Jackson saying .. If u wanna make a change in this world start from within..start from the MAN IN THE MIRROR... just KEEP THE FAITH and MOVE ON.. keep EXITing from one phase to another phase of life...
The other day i was getting back home from a hectic work schedule.. I was out of the parking lot and seeing the badge of the office every one smiles and whenever they don't find anything, they just gaze you as if you are an outsider... They opened the gate with all due respect and suddenly a thought came into my mind that i just took an "EXIT".. which most of the people take it one way or the other.. and was reminding myself that one day I would also take it as my other friends took... perhaps for the other reasons. I just took this moment on a bigger perspective .. people come in this world live here and die after a temporary time..I worked in various places prior to GOOGLE, but still I don't know why this place is more connected to me .. perhaps for the reason that I stayed here for so long, or may be the 'connections' made here...And some of those too were temporary enough.. now God knows how long and persistent those would be....

Life..

15/5/2011

People come and people go...but life?goes on...
Flow of life doesn't stop...come what may,some people are just as mormal as they would be..and some are exceptions with their exceptional qualities...

Some say they're not special,and some boast about themselves..but very few are those who show they're special by their deeds, character.

I, me myself....shall disclose this about myself.

Childhood > As i remember was confusing for me..with some good, bad and worst things. I was lost in my own weird world..of thoughts and learning slowly..Bahanas was a part of my life..i did not know what sportiveness is at that time..i shall not blame my parent's love for that might be that sometimes..
My childhood was more of distractions rather doing something good,productive things which my friends,classmates did.
I was so indulged in t.v and its characters...everything in vain..was lost in my own imaginations..all for negative purposes. I don't know what I was looking for but just used to be lost in my own thoughts. My family was so much worried about me and my future. I did not how,when why and where in my life i stand proud for my parents and family..,,but I believe someday i would do that..if alive,..
I still remember the moments when my parents, out of their anxiety or affection..reached out to get me out alive..when I tried to end life myself..reason i did not remember,but the very feeling of getting frustrated..was killing me so much so yet that i never felt again. I was very much short tempered. I hurled shoes,chappals, everything which got into my hand at any1 when i was angry,frustrated and kept on yelling at everyone around..
I still remember when I was approached by a doctor,a psychiatrist for sharing my ideas,opinions about life. That was annoying..I don't know why are those eccentricities existing.I always wondered life's easy...yet sometimes so complicated that I couldn't get out of that thought untill someone else interferes and gets me out of it. And usually I get addicted to them..
I know till this end..this life is temporary..and every religion preaches good things..for something or the other. For the afterlife, Islam is the ultimate path.

Mufti Mudassir Sahab Bayaan.